there is a final concert of your study. You are confused, because in your “career” most of the time there was a discusion, what you are doing wrong and how it is suppost to be. “Where am I, where are my feelings in this right-wrong story?” You doubt your musical ideas and your technical skills, you doubt yourself. But you still know this is what you want, this is what makes you happy and fulfilled.
After those confusing feelings and your wish to be present in the moment and to be with your music, you meet your mentor.
From here this story goes in two different ways:
1. Your mentor says that maybe you can do it, we can try. He is focusing on your technical skills, so you are practicing like crazy to move your fingers faster and synchronized.
He is saying your tongue is to heavy and show you an exercise that you must practice every day 30Min. And you practice and you practice. Once you play very nice, another time you don’t like it at all. You are becoming even more confused and stressed. You’ve already forgot about the music and the feelings, because there is so many things that you have to fix, to control. Air pressure, breathing, open your lungs, move, don’t move, you are to quiet, you are too loud, to high……. your concert is in 5 days.
2. Your mentor says that you will play an amazing concert and he makes you repeat the sentence. He builds a nice and supportive atmosphere so it is kind of a weird feeling because it is the first time after a while that you feel like you can actually do it. He smiles, notices your strengths and focuses on them. He gives you an
exercise which relaxes your body, so you don’t need to focus on anything, because relaxed bodies do things automatically. You start to feel the music again. And you practice and practice. Once you play very nice, another time you don’t like it at all. But you are becoming more relaxed and now you believe you can. Your instrument suddenly starts to sound better. There is only one thing you have to focus on – enjoy your beautiful music…… your concert is in 5 days.
This is what KMA Berlin is about. We would love to help you enjoy your journey!
By Sara Breznikar
Horn teacher at KMA Berlin